I've
always liked the restful quiet of an empty classroom. Maybe this is why the
large room where we wait to start mealtime duties, here at Pekin Federal
Prison, feels comfortably familiar. During breaks, in the dining area, I've
spent many hours reading, writing, studying Arabic, and staring out the
window.
Today, looking out the window, I watched Kim LaGore
crossing the compound, flanked by Ruth and Malika.
Yesterday, when I left the dish room, I sensed
something was radically wrong. Clusters of women were gathered, many already
puffy-eyed and tearful. "It's Kim," I was told. "Her other son just died."
On March 21st, 2004, Kim Lagore's younger son,
Dustin, was killed in Iraq. He was a 19-year-old US soldier who had tried
his best to stay out of combat. Seventy-two days later, Sean, Kim's older
son, age 29, died from complications following back surgery. Ruth and Malika,
who also lost children while in prison, have been like guardian angels for
Kim, holding and helping her through this wretched grief.
Every person in the prison camp yearns to spin a
protective cocoon around her. The authorities couldn't do much. The system
traps their compassion too. They allowed Kim extra phone calls and submitted
a furlough request. I feel sure that they each wished for swift procedures
to re-sentence Kim to home confinement during the remaining three months of
her sentence. Who wouldn't want to respond humanely to a woman who has lost
both of her children within three months time while forcibly separated from
her relatives and her hometown community? But the system's wheels turn
slowly, very slowly.
"I know many of you don't know what to say," Kim
wrote on a card posted in the laundry room of our dorm. Thanking us for
surrounding her with kindness, she added, "To be honest, I don't know what
to say either, except that we'll make it through…"
I remember my first conversation with Kim, about
three weeks after Dustin was killed. Having learned that I had been in Iraq
many times and lived there during the "Shock and Awe" campaign, she came to
me with his picture and an article she'd written reflecting her pain and
confusion. She still has not been able to learn any details about Dustin's
death other than that, after two weeks in Samarra, a city north of Baghdad,
he was killed in a training accident. "I want to go with you to Iraq," said
Kim. "I want to tell Iraqi parents that my son Dustin never wanted to hurt
anyone. He never wanted to kill."
Kim is here for a "paper crime," - a first time
offender, she was convicted of a nonviolent and "victim-less" crime. In her
former job as a bail bondswoman, she had been anxious that a particular
client might not return for a court date, and she insisted that he pay her
in cash if she posted bond for him. A prosecutor then accused her of
accepting drug money, and Kim was convicted of money laundering. Kim
believed she wasn't responsible to determine how her client had raised the
money.
Enron, Halliburton, Boeing and Dow Chemical CEOs
adeptly cover and shield themselves from harm when accused of shady
dealings. I haven't kept informed about their most recent appearances in
courts, but I don't want any of them to go to jail. I do want the court of
public opinion to regard peddling weapons, designing massive machines for
destruction, ravaging the world's ecosystems, and poisoning our environment
as criminal behavior. Would these CEOs ever refuse clients who declare
foreign wars to exploit other people's resources? Would they ever insist
that their clients stop making war against the biodiversity of Mother Earth?
What would their thoughts be if they heard Kim's story?
June 26, 2004 is Prisoner Awareness Day in the US.
We've thought of inviting our network of friends, outside the prison to
observe the day by making advance agreements to completely suspend all
communications with loved ones, friends, and household members for just one
day. No phone calls, emails, visits, or conversations. At the end of the
day, participants could write about the experience to elected
representatives or local media, voicing concern over the isolating and long
sentences imposed on US prisoners. The action could give a brief glimpse
into the dark frustrations felt by women and men whose contact with loved
ones hangs on the slimmest and most fragile of threads. Our society
desperately needs the social imagining that could envision alternatives.
But for now, Kim's own words and the wordless
comfort brought to her by her fellow "criminals" hold enough for a long
lesson. Who are the criminals? What are the most serious crimes? And what
happens when compassion dies?
Kathy Kelly, co-founder of